Ok, so I completely messed this 30 days of writing thing up already because "Something you hate about yourself" was actually supposed to be day 1... Oh well! Moving forward!
Sometimes I just flat out hate my personality. I think I'm potentially very hard on people. I was recently told, by my husband, that I expect too much from people. I disagree. I expect the people that call themselves my friends to act like my FRIENDS. I expect grown adults to behave like adults. I expect people to keep promises, be half-way decent contributing members of society, be honest and respectable individuals and crazy stuff like that! Maybe I DO expect too much from people...
I AM pretty judgmental, even though I try not to be. I get frustrated really easily sometimes. Ok, pretty often. Alright, most of them time I get frustrated easily! There! I said it! I hate the fact that I'm not the same person I was 3 years ago when I met my husband. I hate that pregnancy and having a baby completely changed who I am. I hate that I allowed it to happen. I love my daughter to the ends of the universe and I wouldn't trade her for anything! I've just changed a lot. I used to be very independent and knew how to have fun but how to keep it reigned in and still remain respectable! I wore my heart on my sleeve and was (a little) more open to people. Now it feels like all I do is bitch and sit in my own misery! And we all know misery loves company. I've done this to myself. And I'm actively working on it. I've gained a significant amount of weight (actually, I just never worked very hard to lose my pregnancy weight) and that takes a toll on my overall happiness. I'm sure I could sit here for another hour or so and rattle off a list of more things I hate about myself. But it's depressing me and I'd really rather not do it anymore... Thanks for reading!
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